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I toured San Quentin last month. No cameras or cell phones were allowed, which is smart, but there were also many photogenic moments and many historic buildings.

There were also many rules about how to dress. No jeans because the prisoners wear denim. No open toe shoes for safety. No skimpy or revealing clothing. And we all signed a no hostage policy statement, meaning while the state corrections officers would try to rescue us, we weren't going to be part of any negotiation.

The biggest surprise to me came right when we went through the front doors. Prisoners were gardening, using large shovels and hedge trimmers and other tools you wouldn't think you'd want a convicted murderer using. The men were freely walking around and talking with each other.

There are four levels of prisoners, and these guys had all earned the right to be as free as they were. It had almost a college campus feel. Guys were shopping at the canteen, or walking to class carrying books, or hanging out on their bunks watching TV or working in the on-site factory or exercising on the yard. Many of the men wore no uniform or any identifying marks that they were prisoners.

Our group met up with a group of prisoners, definitely carefully selected by San Q as having taken responsibility for their crime, showing remorse, and having taken advantage of the opportunities available in the prison. Of the ten guys, only one had finished high school on the outside. One said he made it all the way to 11th grade without ever learning how to read.

At the prison you can't work until you get your GED. All of them earned it, and some had earned an AA degree. Prison labor pays about 11 cents an hour to 60 cents an hour, and 55% of those wages go towards any restitution ordered by the court. If you have ever been inside a government building or a college dorm room or office, you're probably looking at furniture that is part of the system that benefits from what is essentially slave labor.

The 13th amendment to the US Constitution reads:
"Neither slavery nor involuntary servitude, except as a punishment for crime whereof the party shall have been duly convicted, shall exist within the United States, or any place subject to their jurisdiction."
This is why minimum wage doesn't apply, and why the school to prison pipeline helps a few rich white men get even richer.

The prices at the commissary don't match the low pay either - they match outside prices. The most popular item to buy is ramen noodles and other food. I saw cells with onions and eggs and such in them, because they all said the mess hall food was awful, and they doctored up ramen noodles for a meal. One guy said when he gets out he's never going to eat soup again.

(Apparently ramen noodles are very accurately portrayed in the Brooklyn 99 episode where Jake is in prison.)

San Q is a very integrated prison, but the men are still segregated by race in their cells (and cell blocks) and self-segregate in the yard. It's gotta be interesting as a guard to watch these guys exercise for hours on end, knowing that they are getting stronger and you're supposed to control them. (Think about how much you could exercise if there was not much else to do.)

There is a separate death row yard for prisoners to get fresh air who play well with others. For those who don't play well with others there are fenced areas that very much resemble dog pens, but allows prisoners who cannot be with anyone else to move around.

Only the death row inmates have a cell to themselves. Everyone else has bunk beds and there is barely room to stand next to the bunks.

I asked if you were fat and lazy if a guard or counselor would encourage you to go to the yard. A prisoner told me that other members of your race would make you go exercise, and that there weren't a lot of fat guys in prison. We talked briefly about accommodating the aging prison population, and accessibility needs for some prisoners.

One of the few places that creeped me out was a room with 10 very small cells in it. These was only enough room for one person to sit in each cell. Turns out this is a therapy room for guys who cannot be around other guys without protective cages around them. Wow.

The prisoner we spoke with who is in charge of cleaning that floor of the hospital said he's become certified in handling hazmat waste while in the prison. His reform took a long time. For the first 15 years he was in jail, he still smoked pot. Now he says he's been sober for years. We asked him what he thought about the fact that it's now legal on the outside. He was slightly amused, slightly sad. He said he won't smoke when he gets out.

He also said every man on his dad's side of the family, including his dad, had done time in prison. There's no easy answer for breaking that cycle. He said his biggest fear is technology, because it moves so quickly, and there are waitlists to get into the tech classes in the prison. (And non-tech classes too - sometimes up to 3 years.) I wanted to tell him anything that is techy is probably going to be outsourced or done by computer and that his hazmat training was more layoff-proof, but I didn't. He told us he hid a knife up his ass for 8 years.

I kept feeling like I should be somber but the PIO leading us around laughed a lot, with our tour group and with the prisoners. He had worked there a long time. The prisoners definitely get access to a good amount of rehabilitation opportunities. When asked if prisons were needed, most guys said yes, and a few said no. One went on to describe the German model of prisons and one guy said "I'm going to respond with an I statement... I feel that...."

Some people think prison is for punishment, or for profit, or for rehabilitation. Certainly the guys allowed to talk to us all felt that they had more to contribute to their communities now, than they did when they committed their crimes. The sentencing was all over the map. 40+ years for robbing some GameStop stores. 25 years as part of a robbery that turned into a murder.

The lifers and the non-lifers act very differently, we were told. Those who think they can get out have a reason to better themselves. At San Q they have the opportunity too. There is a prisoner-published newspaper, they perform Shakespeare, the Giants and the Warriors have played games with the guys. There are art and music classes. Tennis lessons.

Here's the thing: San Q is on prime real estate in an urban environment. So it's easy for groups and individuals to volunteer their time. Prisons that are in the middle of nowhere don't get any of that. It was depressing to think about. We so want to lock people away and never think about them again. But these guys have so much time to think, and were so articulate. It made me wish everyone could get a tour so that they would see this part of our judicial system. Maybe it would be like jury service - hey you - go learn about America by visiting a jail, a military base, a poor performing school, a homeless shelter, a car factory...

We toured the gas chamber. I'm anti-death penalty in all cases. I don't think I could ever witness a execution. Our tour guide described a death row inmate's last day in hour by hour detail. The death row blocks looked dark and more forbidding than the general population, but most prisoners were just watching TVs in their cells, facing away from the hallway. The oldest prisoner on death row is 87. The longest serving death row inmate arrived in 1978. In the death row chapel the chaplain is in a locked cage separate from the locked cage of the parishioners.

Other observations:

- men who have sight or hearing impairments are given a lime green vest to wear so that the guards can tell from a distance why someone might not be responding to them

- one of the men who was just granted parole and will leave next month, shared these words of wisdom: do what you're supposed to do, so that you're free to do what you want to do

- a prisoner on death row shouted to us to check out Our Last Meals, a San Quentin cookbook (it's available on Amazon)

- while the prisoners' art is shared with schools and other places, the art made by death row inmates is sold in a gift shop that is open to the public for 2 hours a day. I was sorry to miss out on it. Apparently Scott Peterson makes chess sets that sell out quickly. Some of the art that I could see through the window looked impressive. Cash only, no change. Not sure if the money goes to the prisoners or not.

- I also didn't make it to the museum just outside the prison. We arrived at San Quentin before 0830 and left after 1430, with no food or water during that time and I was fighting a cold, so I was eager to get back home.

- prisoners can have some decent stuff if they have the financial means - TV, hot pot, microwave, Air Jordans, fancy watches, etc. I didn't see any communal TV space and forgot to ask about it.

- the mess hall is designed to try and reduce large fights. It also has incredible and detailed murals painted a very long time ago by a prisoner

- lots of signs around the rec yard telling prisoners not to feed the birds (pigeons, gulls, Canada geese)

- I regret not asking about the monotony of being in the same basically city block sized area for so long

- we saw the original cells, which were basically cave-like dungeons.

I'm so grateful I was able to go on this tour. I recommend a similar experience to everyone, and I'm definitely donating to prison reform groups. I've heard people ask why they should support former prisoners instead of someone who had never been to prison. A lot of these men committed crimes between the ages of 17-25. And they've faced their problems. A lot of men on the outside never have. And robbing a store as a teenager shouldn't come with a lifetime of punishment that means never being able to have a steady job.

The prisoners have access to therapists, to guidance counselors (to help place them in jobs in the prison, and when they get out,) teachers in all sorts of subjects, help with quitting drugs and alcohol and so much other assistance. What would our prison system look like if teenagers had that all of that in middle school and high school instead?
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read Jake the Fake Keeps It Real in about an hour+

It was awesome!!! I loved it.

There were so many perfect throwaway jokes, and like my house, it had a kid going in to 6th grade and one going into 12th.
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Finally wrote my comment to help protect some important land from drilling and other destruction.

https://www.regulations.gov/document?D=DOI-2017-0002-0001

I feel a lot of pressure in writing a comment both because I believe in the mission of the National Park Service, but also I've seen so many comments "thrown out" because they aren't considered substantial, so I try to make sure my comments are.

But now it is done, and I encourage you not to wait to long to overcome any writers block you might have. The comment period ends on Friday.

Book news

May. 20th, 2017 09:08 pm
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My first book of the year - All the Birds in the Sky - just won a Nebula award.

I confess that I read Make Trouble just to count as "another book" when in fact it's shorter than most blog posts.

It was fun. I'm happy to support John Waters. But it got completely derailed by his misunderstanding and condescending attitude about trigger warnings.

He said it was used whenever a listener's values might be challenged and that's not it at all.

More accurate is to say "this play has the sound if gunfire in it" so that someone with PTSD or other concerns can decide if they want to stay or not.

I don't like spoilers, but here's the flip side to not using them: if you are the authority figure in charge, and you want to avoid trigger warnings, then you are fully responsible for dealing with all reactions. Someone starts throwing around chairs in your classroom? Someone wets themselves? Don't whine to me that you weren't prepared to deal with that.

It's not the same thing at all as having challenging discussions. (That's what group agreements and classroom norms are for.)

Anyway. Not really at 1 book a month for this year yet but I'll probably be caught up soon. I also got caught up on some newspaper reading today.

photo blog

May. 15th, 2017 08:15 pm
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What I still want is the ability to post from my phone because that's the easiest way to include pictures, but I haven't seen a Dreamwidth app.

Anyone else resistant to Instagram?

I take a ton of photos to "post about one day" and then I run out of days and hours and minutes.

My tooth gets a crown tomorrow. I had it in my calendar as "coronation" and it took me a while to recall what I meant.

Reading

May. 15th, 2017 08:09 pm
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Finished Are You My Mother, the follow-up novel to Fun Home by Alison Bechdel

I did not like it.

Speaking of Bechdel, we saw Guardians of the Galaxy Vol 2 yesterday. It passes the Bechdel Test.

Next book I'll read is John Water's commencement speech as a chaser, and then dive into Saint Joan, which is really two sets of reading: the foreword and the actual play. I have until June 16th to finish it.

After that I'll hopefully read something easy an schlocky.
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Are You My Mother? by Alison Bechdel
- not as light-hearted as Fun Home

Make Trouble by John Waters
- barely a book, but a good unicorn chaser after the above

Saint Joan by George Bernard Shaw
- just little sips at a time, to finish before I see it performed in June

I keep thinking of 2017 as a low-reading year for me so far, but if you count audio books I finished All the Birds in the Sky by Charlie Jane Anders in January, so this will technically be 4 books in 4 months.

I just don't have anything else queue up right now.

I do hope to find something relaxing and engaging to read for my long August trip.
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I thought I had this great Lifehack, which if you aren't familiar with the term, is an improvement that used to be called Hints From Heloise but once white men started to get in on the act, it needed a more hip name. But this one I think is probably too specialized. It works brilliantly, but the target demographic is a bit small.

Unless I need to catch a plane or get up before 5, I haven't used an alarm clock in at least 20 years. Some of this has to do with the luck of being in a job with a flexible start time, but most of it has to do with going to bed around 10pm and having a natural tendency to wake up at the same time every day. I'm quite awful at sleeping in.

A long time ago, when I had less to worry about I guess, I loved the quiet of my partner's bedroom. There were no windows, no door to the outside, and it was so very quiet. Maybe not "corn farm on 200 acres" quiet, but for being in a city it felt absolutely silent to me.

Then, maybe due to stress, maybe due to little noises of an old house, my partner brought a white noise machine in to the bedroom. I hated it. I wanted to be able to hear if something went wrong in another part of the house. But I got used to it, and it did kind of cover up his snoring. I have even started to miss it when I travel. It might even be helping me sleep.

More recently, my partner started to use an alarm clock. It was jarring, and pointless; a horrible combination. It would wake both of us up, but then he'd go back to sleep and I couldn't. And there were always those times where I'd peer at the clock wondering if we had missed the alarm.

So I suggested we turn the white noise machine into a negative sound alarm.

Now the white noise machine turns off at a set time. It's a subtle change, and sometimes I do wake up immediately, but more often than not I wake up a few minutes after it turns off. It's much more relaxing than waking up to a sound, even a soft sound.

But the best part is, once it turns off, it's always off. So if he drifts off or if I wonder if I overslept, I can always hear whether the white noise machine is off or on. It's kind of brilliant. The only catch is to make sure to turn it off on weekends, so that I have a chance of sleeping a little later. I love how much this works for us, but I'm not sure it would work for many other people.
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Here I am.

I like the idea of using Instagram, but you never know.
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